Today I’m open my inbox
Delete your massage one by one
Feeling so disappoint not make me cry anymore
Because I just see the truth
And I remember something now..
Long days ago ..
I tried to know you every time
Send you some massage all day
Sometimes you replay it ,sometimes not
If you replay it ..
I’m smile and felt so glad ..
But I know that just a single word
On a weekend .
You said you love someone else .
It was broke my heart
Make it become a pieces
My tears falling down
Then ..
You never send me a massage ..
You never tell me that single word again ..
Some days next ..
I don’t know why
You start to send me a massage again
Me and you become a close friend in mortal world
You quiet fun and gentle
Your massage make me feel amazed
I watched you every time
Looking for your appearance and characteristic
Slowing down but I got all
There is Just one thing
I don’t understand ..
You always bring your hat ..
Then If you meet or look at me
You will pull your hat down
And close your face
But I still see your glasses
There’s a real shadow of your eyes
You Looking down
But it attacked me up
One day . .
Your lovely know that I love you too .
She like a black wolf in a white beauty sheep body
She smile at me when we meet..
Say hello and spare a sharp glance .
She write abnormal status at Facebook about you and me
She like a crazy girl that always sad and very-very easy to give up
She think she was lose anything
All just because she knew that you comment and send me some massage ..
Till in the night ..
I’ve sick
I’m not go to school for a few days
And You not send me a massage again
I feel something that I must do
I open her profile at Facebook
Actually she was so glad at her status
Feel be a winner cause I was falling deep
She wrote a status like she got you fully
She feel So happy cause I have let you go
And Yesterday ..
I tried to go back at school
I know that I still get headache and disease in my body
First I want to get test
And Second I want to see you
I hope You not forget me
So I closed my eyes in front of the madding
Look at the clock that moving foul my black core
This morning feeling so cold and I know I’m alone there
Without anyone or anything
I shake my feet
Look at them
Count it until ten .. And start to ask
Will somebody come and accompany me here ?
And Will you be the first people that I see this morning?
I watch at the school gate
You walk cross the cold air
I don’t know why do you know that’s me who sit in front of the madding
Cause you close your face again
You pass me without any responses
And walking so fast alone
The hat close your eyes again .. And your glasses too.
So I don’t know what you see .. What you think .
At fifth seconds
I choose for walk to the opposite way
Touch the school gate and breathe for a few second
Then I go back
I feel great pain on my head and heart
I look around
Make my face become look better
I don’t have to say anything
I bow my head down
Let the pain soar away
When I went to home first of all
It cause that I still in sickness
I send you a massage
I ask you why you don’t want to see me ?
You look so conceited
You replay it one hour later
You say It’s your problem
You have a special reason that you don’t have to tell me up
I know you still love her
I hope I’m not miss understood
But be your girlfriend isn’t what I want
I just want to be your friend
You ever ask me Who Am I For You ?
I say you are my best friend
Yeah I try to greet you and talk with you
Like a real best friend that I’ve been see anywhere
Actually ..
You have to change your desire
You don’t want to see me .. So we wont be a best friend
Maybe Evermore
And ever-lastingly
We had 2 different ways
I will do the best for my long destinies
Take all of my responsibility
Now I understand
I can’t let my guilty feeling go away
I just want to let you free
Walk around in your marvelous live
Now I don’t hear anything ‘bout you
No massage again .. This life was empty
I got lose in your eyes
Where are you? I miss you
Why you do me like this ?
Then God answer my Hopeless
I see him
He see me .. At Thursday..
Passing glance but I knew he saw
I hope with it he massage me again
But
The reality say Not
He still like that .. I don’t know why and what
He forget me
Its not a first time but number one hurt
I try to think positive
Maybe I looked freak at the time
I meet him again
Not meet, just look at him for 15m up
But I still can see him normal
Observe anything without any benefits or equal
Then I see him on the stairs to go to auditorium
I see his face without glasses
Now I know his eyebrow .. haha
Then I pass to my teacher whose talking
I don’t know he look me or us
I don’t know and I didn’t care his reaction since
When I pass at the stairs again
He went
At home I get my phone in my right hand
Check for your massage
Nothing
Nothing news in my phone .. From you or others ..
I wait until five o’clock by sleep
When I wake up I go to check for a twice time
Nothing
Nothings new
He cant treat me right
He never tell you .. But he can play guitar..
I think you can make me smile with that before and after all was over
So Just one I know
He don’t care all ‘bout me again..
I know I’m not his princess
And I have to lose in his memorize ..
So hurt but I must got it
Its perfect for kill me..
ITS AN OLD STORY ABOUT HIM
