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| haaaa gua banget -_-v |
Argh im so depressed !
Why i always repeat the same thing anytime !
Im so stupid kinda girl, stupid idiot !
Its bad score always !, i repeated it 3 times ! 3 timeeees !
I never get a perfect score anymore . That i want it, i try but i always do wrong !
My fault will be my life's lesson , but it never be a LESSON ! It all repeat and repeat and repeat . I wanna fix it. It repeat and it repeat, how can i stopped it?
I always try and do hard. But i never get better, it run worse .
Sometimes its not the same thing with the first fault, but sure there was the same thing happen too.
Argh . I wanna stop my life here now . I can do anything right yeah?
Because i was a stupid idiot lazy crazy girl that ever exist -__-v
I wanna change i wanna change ! wanna make this life more fun, make my score look better maybe. But all is to late to do it. Nope i still have a little chance on National Exam , and School Exam, but i pass to MANY chances, Try out 1 2 3 and PlacementTest, Middle School Test, every semester. One or Two .
I still have a little chance, but its too many chances passed , make me down, maybe down depper, all my classmate get UP rank, but im? DOWNNNN SO DEEEEP . They were so smart , they always be the first, and always up up and up on the life's wheel, but not am i. I never get a chance to placed up, i always under all. I try and i dont wanna be a loser, feel desperate .
But ALWAYS in my important time and important DAY TO GET MY REPORT'S SCORE or ANY SCORE TO COMPLETELY MY LIFE . I NEVER GET IT ! i was sooooooo arrogant with myself, i a lways feel enough, so I NEVER GET MY TIME TO BE HIGHER ANYWAY I TRIED , I ALWAYS FAILED IT . to be a winner is all i want now. More than anything in this world,
And..
I wanna change ..
From the girl that always feel enough, and sastified of myself, to be a girl that never feel enough, always feel stupid - and fail . I wanna be like empty glass, if i was in empty condition, i wanna let a miracles come and fill me :) I wanna do harder for all of this ! FOREVER !
Think positive,forget all your mistakes, they were a rubbish that you must recycle . I can i can i can i can. God will help me clearly, if i do and work hard, no more give up, no more feel enough, always pray, dont be arrogant, always try, wake up from your dream, your way is .. is .. still long .. It never stop here . Come on Almas , wake up from your dream, open your eyes. Where is your spirit? Show me ! Erase that damn tears, show me your sweet smile, and say .. I CAN BEAT ALL OF YOU !!!
I WILL ALWAYS TRY ALTOUGH I KNOW I CANT . JUST HOLD YOUR FAITH FOR YOUR GOD .. HE WILL HELP YOU RIGHT, ANYTIME YOU NEED HIM, IN UNEXPECTED AND UNPREDICTABLE TIME . be stronger , open your eyes, stop to be an idiot , change!, just for a little ,yeah.
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| haha apabanget |
